Monday, October 22, 2007

Dark: fragment 3

Downtown.
Busy intersection. Late afternoon about to give in to the evening. Vehicles whizz past by the hundred. A never-ending flow that would make you think the streets would be forever choked with oil drinking monsters that spew out smog. And yet, it all keeps moving, the traffic starting devil-knows-where, swallowed by devil-knows-what, providing the street with a constant supply of the only thing it is faithful to: chaos.
A crowd. Hundreds of people rushing from hell-knows-where rushing to hell-knows-what. A young punk in sharp business clothes and flashy, strictly cosmetic eyewear hurries arrogantly to nothing of consequence. He is speaking, no, shouting on his cellphone, not bothering to notice, much less apologize to, the old-timer he has just pushed into grabbing a nearby pole for support. A peroxide blonde, dressed in delicious red and deadly black, walks a poodle that is the envy of every male around, just because it is the only thing that she seems interested in.
He watches it all, as he always has. He stands there, near the newsstand owned by the immigrant, that also sells cigarettes, over-the-counter medication, instantly gratifying pulp in text, image, and video, along with elixirs promising instant youth perched the cutting edge of ethics and legality.
He watches it all with a kind of patience they say only the wise old ones have. The kind of patience that has built itself a quiet little country house on the edge of a cliff in a seismic zone. All it needs is a little tremor. All he needs is something to send him over the edge.
This newsstand is his vantage point into his own soul. A window of sorts, from which he can see within, as he looks without. He stands here for hours on end, soaking in all the angst that the city gives its inhabitants. He senses their longing, wallows in their lust, and absorbs like a stoic their frustrations. He feels he is their guardian angel, if an unknown, unwelcome, impotent one. This adds to the emptiness within him, and his rage swells. And yet, he does not move, nor act on it. For this rage is a self-feeding fire, and like most such fires, has the self-defeating intent of self-preservation, with only one possible end: the elimination of their host.
He barely notices this ebb and flow inside him. It’s been too long and he’s gotten used to it, after all. He just stands there, effortlessly tuning in and out of the airwaves of the city’s chaos - which is but a macrocosm of his own.
Suddenly, a spike!
He senses something out of place. Even chaos has a pattern, and this is definitely not it. He is forced out of his languor. The only external signs he gives of it is the rapid blinking of eyelids as he tries to figure out what it is, and the beads of sweat that break out on his forehead because of the concentration. He starts looking around, his face scanning the area around him for an answer, short arcs at a time, in no particular order. He notices nothing amiss in the crowds, or the automobile traffic, or the derelicts that walk aimlessly, or the purposeful groups of officer-goers.
And then he sees it.
There, across the street, barely a dozen yards across, stands a newsstand just like the one he favors. The crowds are thick as ever, but he is sure he has never seen him there before.
A hefty man. Wearing a cape of some sort. Can’t make out a face, not even outlines of features. The head, under a hat, seems to be turned in his general direction. Can’t be too sure, in this light. When in doubt, assume the worst.
He is scared. Throat parched. Heart racing. Adrenalin rushing.
Fight or flight?
He is never sure who made the call. Or even, indeed, what the call was. All he recalls is starting to walk toward the menacing silhouette.
He still can’t see any better, and yet he is sure the silhouette is looking straight at him now.
He walks at an even, cautious pace, dictated by a fine balance of anger, confusion and fear. He must know who has violated his personal space. Even if this is hell, it‘s his own private hell.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Tag Time!

Tags are wonderful things. You tag someone, and dominoes start falling across cyberspace. Wicked!

I'm picking up two tags here:

The first from Mahogany: "If you were to go on a trip alone (i.e., minus partner), where would you go?"
I'd go on a homage trip - either to Dali (because his work intrigues the heck out of me) or Scorsese (because he is an influence I cannot shake off).This would vaguely mean visiting places that let me experience what shaped these gents.
By the end of it, It'd be nice to have a sketch or a script outline that is my interpretation of their work's essence. Or not.
p.s. - I fully share Mahogany's sense of dread at planning a solo thing. And that's only half because I rely on my wife to get the trip running smoothly. How life changes. :)

The second from Makdee: "What are your Quirks?"
My quirks are mini-OCDs. From childhood (yes, that long ago), I have fond memories of mini-OCDs (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorders: seemingly mindless rituals or rules that you follow in everyday life, without which you feel uneasy). Google this.
Samplers:
1. If I must walk on a tiled/striped/striated floor, I must place my steps in the spaces between them. Never on them. No part of my foot, shoe or line of sight through trouser fabric, ideally, should touch the lines/borders. This has become much milder now, in old age.
2. As I walk out the door in the morning, the first step I place on the outside ground must be my right. This is part superstition, part OCD. Deliciously grey.
3. Specific hand/foot actions must be in even numbers, in even number of sets, must begin with the left and (therefore) end with the right. These again, are now few and far in between.

Some non-OCD (I think!) examples:
4. Writing my name on page 10 of every newly acquired book, textbook and exercise book (how Hindi-medium school-ish, I know). 10th of March is my birthday, by the way. The variation on this is making a full signature on aforementioned page (how Hindi-medium schooler admitted to English-medium secondary school-ish, I know).
5. Writing painfully detailed to-do lists, even seconds before executing the first task on it. Truly therapeutic. Try it!

And, in this spirit: Ganji (of footnotes shame), Sudha (of Mystic Pizza fame), Sumedha (of the Quirky Quill connection) - you have been hereby tagged. Choose one (or both) from the above, and do your bit of sneezing in blogosphere!

Haa-choo!!